Strawberry Matter

(written by Hayden Oran)

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Dirty bathwater. Laid out for you.

Cleaned up by me, I'm a guardian.

What is the matter? It matters to me.

I stand here waiting.

If you want me to go, I'll go but I won't apologize.

If you want me to stay, I'll stay for you. Live my days with you.

Strawberry matter. It's falling like rain.

The young morning comes, starting over.

Loved her, you had her. You never felt the way.

You thought you should feel when you're lovers.

If you want me to love. I will love for you. I will be so true.

If you want me to care. I will hold you here. Keep you warm and dear.

Ah, say I'm gonna survive man when this is all over.

Ah, but I think that you'll lose your mind.

Ah, say who's gonna love me when all this is over.

Ah, nobody does it like you and I've tried. Oh I've tried. I've tried.

I'm still astounded, astounded by pain. Astounded by beauty and astounded by shame.

Pick me back up, the way that you take.

All of the pieces that comfort.

And If you love me the way that you say you do. Come and make me move.

If you push me away, I'll go away from here. I will disappear.

Strawberry matter, falling away. I kept you close, kept you sheltered.

What is the matter, to me it's the same. To me it's the same.

Ah, now you say you don't love me and I can't stay sober.

Ah, but I know that you're losing your mind.

Ah, who's gonna love me like you when it's over?

Ah, I've fallen to hard but I tried.

Oh I tried. I tried.

I'm so afraid of love. Afraid of love. I'm so afraid of love.

Afraid of love. I'm so afraid of love. Afraid of love.

'Cuz I tried. 'Cuz I tried. 'Cuz I tried. I tried. I tried.

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You're So Lovely
(written by Hayden Oran)

you’re so lovely i could tear your heart to pieces.
i think i could love you too.
this loaded life i’ve spent. planning my revenge.
i’ve found to put the plot in you. you.
you’re so lovely i could sew my life together.
exes up and down. pull tight to fit me better.
oh jesus, please please please us. i lie in my filthy bed.
i’m dying for the ride and break my own heart instead.
all hail this life i’ve led.
all hail this life i’ve led.
all hail this life i’ve led.
take me up to the stars with you.
the stars.
it felt so lovely when you kiss the ground to me.
but i’m nothing but i goner. why do you stay to see.
my withered septembers. i fake a smile pretty.
i’ll never. be better. but you mean the world to me.
all hail this life i’ve led.
all hail this life i’ve led.
all hail this life i’ve led.
oh painting back picture pages.
a sunrise to a brand new moon.
the talisman wouldn’t dare to breathe the flame.
you struck just like a chord,
i’d never heard among my wildest dreams.
you stole the show. among other things.
all hail this life i’ve led.
all hail this life i’ve led.
all hail this life i’ve led.
oh could you stay a little longer.
could you stay a little longer.
i’m so cold.
all hail this life i’ve led.

 

And Beauty Was All I Could Call You 
(written by Hayden Oran)

 

I tell ya something. 
I seen you dancing in the city streets. 
And it looked like freedom I recall. 
You got in my way. I was searching for something 
I didn't know what was coming. 
But I fought it with all the life in me.
You got in my way. You got all the glory. 
You got all the glory. You say to this day. 
It was your favorite story. Of the summertime. 
In your eyes, summertime. 
And beauty was all I could call. 
And beauty was all I could call you. 
And beauty was all I could call you.
I tell you something I knew you'd dare to seek me. 
You seen right through the heart of the matter I see. 
But then you approach me, and you tell me that you like the way. 
That I danced in the summer. That I danced in the changing autumn. 
You got in my way. And I best adapted. 
To the things you had to say. Because you 
had impact on the songs I play. 
And beauty was all I could call you. 
And beauty was all I could call you. 
And beauty was all I could call you.
And beauty was all I could call you. 
And beauty was all I could call you. 
And beauty was all I could call you. 

You got in my way, you got all the glory. 
You swing from day to day, and you tell the same old story. 
Of how you got in my way. How you got all the glory. 
And if I had everything, it would be the story of my life. 
And beauty was all I could call you. 
And beauty was all I could call you. 
And beauty was all I could call you. 
 

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The Life Song 
(Written by Hayden Oran)

 

 

 

I’m hanging out to dry, the ropes are loose I’m coming down again. 
I’ve spent too many days, oh soaking up the bedroom floor. 
And no one’s gonna tell me what to think. And all that’s grey will one day turn to gold. 
At least that’s what there telling me. Take me far away, I bought a car today. 
So that I could find my own way out. 
I got hired today. I got fired today. 
I got pulled over and I can’t pull out. 
Seems that life keeps dragging me down. 
Seems that life keeps dragging me down. I’m hanging on a ledge, 
The rope is loose, it slips out of my 
hand. I pray too many nights, for 
things are always left unsaid. 
And no one’s gonna make me lose myself. 
And no one’s gonna make me scream and go insane. 
At least that’s what I keep telling myself. 
Take me far away, trapped in a jar today. 
So that I can figure myself out. 
I got scared today. But spared another day 
I got fucked over, when I lost my doubt. 
Seems that life keeps dragging me down. 
Seems that life keeps dragging me down.

 

Give My Love Away
(written by Hayden Oran)
 

All the days we spent 

wasting into the nights

Nights are young and painted 

of blie skies. 

Everybody's dreaming of

love we can't find. 

Who's to blame, we're one 

the same. We've all reached 

out to light. 

Too the light.

Chorus: And you say you know it, 

said you hold it, said you bring it back 

to life. Oh lover, I think you're lying. 

No use in dying, won't you fight the tide? 

I'll give my love away. 

Everybody knows it's all 

apart of growing. 

Everybody's faces all 

turn white. 

Dreaming days, 

were one the same. 

Were once the way 

we made it right. 

You said love's a game.

Played by fools and the blame is

the price you pay. 

You said love is vain.

Because you're so afraid.

Of the life you knew. 

Chorus: And you say you know, 

Said you hold it, said you'd bring it back 

to life. Oh lover, why you crying? 

Heres to fighting, Heres to one more last night. 

I'll give my love away.

The mourning time is useless.

When you can't feel a string, 

of the light you had that made you.

Everything I breathe. 

And the people when they cut you, 

Take the pieces all away. 

And the numbness that you feel there, 

Won't ever fill the space.

I'll give my love away. 

Give my love away. 

(I've been trying, I've been trying.) 

Give my love away. 

(I've been trying, I've been trying.) 

Give my love away.

 

Driving 
(written by Polly Jean Harvey) 

 

 

Tell 'em I'm driving.

It's alright. 

Turn on this wheel.

Turn on headlights.

100 different bibles by my side.

In my white gown,

I go flying down. 

Oh my life, it cannot be.

The things he said, it cannot be.

Oh my life, it cannot be.

He said no, it cannot be. 

The ghosts fly their asses off tonight.

'Cuz I'm just driving. 'Til it dies.

Tell 'em I'm driving. It's alright.

You tell 'em that I had a skin full.

You tell 'em that I couldn't sit still.

Imagine your whole self is filled with light.

I got your voice ringing.

I got through the whole fucking town.

I got your voice ringing 

I got through the whole fucking town. 

Oh my eyes, It cannot be. 

The things you said, it cannot be.

All my life, it cannot be.

He said no, it cannot be. 

Why don't you tell 'em I'm driving?

Tell 'em I'm driving. 

 

 

 

Eat Dog

(written by Hayden Oran)

 

Head on my shoulder, Head on my shoulder.
Oh I'll see you again someday.
My friend, my lover.
You're a mess it's plain to see.
It's been another day,
Been the same to me.
Oh lord. The world is shaking.
I can't stand my ground.
It's been hell.
Said I'll never surrender.
Said I'll never surrender.
This time, I'll take my pride 
and I'll burn it all away.

chorus: It's been a long, long time.
And I'm not scared of anything but everything.
And I'm not scared to die.
And I'm not scared to die.

 

Rose in a garden, Rose in a coal field.
I've seen her here before. I know that she is real.

Oh lord. Feel the breaking.
It's louder than before.
You said it was the devil,
Knocking on my door.

Said I've lain in filth.
A couple of time. 
Whole life in filth.
Whole life a crime. 

 

chorus.

 

It's a dog eat dog world town.
Keep watch behind your shoulders.
It's coming back around.

It's rising like a flame.

And all the lovely people stare.

And all the lovely people stare.

And all the lovely people stare.

And all the lovely people stare. 

 

Some Days 

(written by Hayden Oran) 

 

Some days, this life is a bore.
Sunday morning falling out the door.

Mary should have told me twice,
I can't learn from all I do.

Hunger whets my appetite.

All that goes falls back on you.
Some day. 

Some days I go down to the city.
Some days, The city shines so bright. 

Some days I can't see the sun, or an ordinary plane. 
Stars and bars and thrills and guns.

Everything just looks the same.

Some days lost but some days won.
Some days in my Sunday face.

I can't look at anyone, anyone can't look at me.

Look at me! 

 

Some days, I can't take anymore.
One day I'm gonna make this world my whore.
Some day I'll go into grey. 
Brutal blue and brighter days.
If I cannot see my way.
I'll write down my darkest day.

Some day! 

Some day! 
Some days I go down to the city.
Some days the city frowns on me.

Some days I can't see the sun.
Or an ordinary plane. 
Stars and bars and thrills and guns. 
Everything just looks the same.
I can't look at anyone.
Anyone can't look at me.

 

Look at me...
Look at me...
Look at me...
Look at me...
Some days I go down to the city.

 

 

 
 

Skin Off My Bone 
(written by Hayden Oran) 

 

Won't be no skin off my bones, If I let you go.
'Cuz I'm just gonna go meet with my friends.
Oh time it goes so slow, Oh time it leaves me frozed.

Love you're nothing new, you're something of a bad, bad
soul.
Please leave me be. 
Leave me be. 
Oh get the fuck away from me! 
Leave this place!
Won't you go back home?

You don't got no soul, 
Gimme back my home, 
Give a dog his bone.

Won't be no skin off my bones, if you take me home.

'Cuz I'm just gonna go meet with my friends.

Oh love you're just a joke. Nothing short of an 
average bloke.
Get the fuck out of my face,
Get the fuck out my home! 

No skin off my bone!!
No skin off my bone!!
No skin off my bone!! 

So give me back my records and I'll give you back
your heart.
Oh give me back my recollection, let me feel apart.

Please just let me be.
Please just let me be.
Just let me be! 

 

 

Modern Day Giant

(written by Hayden Oran)

 

You've had me in the cage.

For a moment or two.

Your lady mercy lays. 

Better take a break.

Before you melt it all away.

chorus: Cuz we are not of modern day.

Cuz we are not of modern day. 

Oh the ageless, older age.

Oh the places, there are to go. 

We are not of modern day. 

Bird stuck on a stage.

Born to fade away. 

Life is just the same.

When your head's in older days. 

Your lady mercy lays.

chorus: Cuz we are not of modern day.

Cuz we are not of modern day.

Bort to die all just the same.

We are not of modern day. 

I'm not trying to find myself,

I'm just trying to get by.

You're not gonna save

myself, my self, myself. 

Your lady mercy lays... 

 

 

 

 

 

Glory 

(written by Hayden Oran)

 

Glory is what glory does.

I see everyone just fade away

when I'm with you.

chorus: I fall to pieces when 

you touch me. Tell ya secret,

you're my one thing. Glory.

Glory. 

Glory takes me by the hand.

I have no other place to stand.

I thought I found a way.

You said you'd stay.

My glory makes 'em 

go away

chorus. 

I thought I seen you 

here before. 

Shine so bright I

see no more. 

I've seen a million ways.

To get out of this place.

Don't wanna die here

anymore. 

chorus. 

You're gonna hear from me.

You're gonna hear from me.

You're gonna hear from me. 

 

Marjorie
(written by Hayden Oran)

Give me a sign, a heap of faith.

My crosses bare.

I've fell from grace.

Give me a sky,

A forest of green.

A letter from God.

All of these things.

Don't want a limit.

I'll jump in the sky.

My body is wet but my 

hands remain dry. 

chorus: And I can see you Marjorie. 

Now I can see you Marjorie.

So jump in the sky, jump in the sky.

Jump in the sky with me. 

Jump in the sky, Jump in the sky..

Jump in the sky with me. 

I want the answers, only you tell.

Laid out all bare.

Fly me to hell. 

Keep me from lies.

Keep me from greed.

Keep me from life,

inside of a seed.

I bury my heart inside of a shell.

I keep it inside but I wear you well.

Don't make it a habit.

Seen nothing but stars.

You cannot have it.

I am who you are.

 

chorus. 

My shiny.

My shiny.

My ivory Marjorie.

Can you see her coming?

Crawlin up my skin.

I'll take what I wanted.

My pefect sin. 

When you see her coming.

Coming up my skin.

Give you what you wanted.

My perfect skin.

chorus. 

 

Down
(written by: Hayden Oran) 

 

Oh stay home, 

what's your worry?

You've got nothing better to do.

Speak slowly don't mean wisely.

They all see right through you.

Oh what a mess you've made.

I must have slipped for days.

To breathe is my only way.

 

chorus: I'm down, I'm down, I'm down again.

Don't tell me that I'm breaking, Don't tell me.

Don't tell me that I'm breaking, don't tell me.

People talk, do people listen?

Do you got something that you wanna say? 

Scream louder, just scream louder.

Maybe they'll hear some day. 

Oh what would people say?

If I took my life today.

I don't care.

It's all okay.

Look what a mess you've made.

chorus.

 

They Play On

(written by: Hayden Oran)

 

Swing on a tire swing.
Learn to just let go.
With you and what army?
You and what army? 

Fell in the river.
Soaked from head to toe.
Fell in the river.
Ya learn to just let go. 
 

Chorus: And I can breathe, can someone suffocate me?
And I can finally breathe. No one can take this away from me. 

Me. 

 

Swing on a tire swing.
Live to let it burn.
I think I can do it.
I think I can let it burn.

Head's in the sky.
They think you're a dreamer.

Head's in the sky.
And the sky is falling. 

 

chorus. 

 

 

 

 

E-X
(written by: Hayden Oran)

 

 

Ya mama cried.

Ya daddy cried.

No body cares anymore.

Ya daddy smiled.

Ya mama tried.

No body cares anymore 

rock is dead.

Rock's alive.

No body cares anymore.

I'm not sure 'bout what you been through.

I'm not sure at all.

I'm not sure who you see looking back at you.

chorus: But, I'm e-xtraordinary.

I'm e-xtraordinary.

The teacher said.

Grow up and be anything you wanted.

The children said,

The children said,

You ain't ever gonna make it.

Roses red.

Roses red.

Petals fall off in the water.

chorus. 

I'm e-x-traordinary

I'm e-x-traordinary

Your baby cried.

Your baby lied.

Nobody cares anymore.

You loved him once.

You loved him twice.

I don't care anymore.

 

 

Void
(written by: Hayden Oran)

 

Ease my soul. My love, my soul.

Ease my mind.

My life, my lies. 

And I'll wait for you.

But it's all in my.

It's all in my. 

It's all in my head. 

I see you beside my bed at night.

I close my eyes, I see lights.

Bright lights.

I found God, I found love, I found happiness

and grieve no more. 

The war has ended. 

chorus. 

You can't see me.

You can't feel me. 

I can't see the light no more. 

 

Fitch
(written by Hayden Oran) 

 

Oh Fitch, 

I taught you better.

My one and only son.

The papers said you 

had it all.

I gave you hills and 

rivers. A body and

a head. It wrapped around

your finger. You lie down

in your bed and pray.

Oh Fitch,

The worlds gets bigger.

Every single day.

A dollar cost a fortune.

There is no easy way.

This road is longer.

Than all the rest.

Think about what I told you.

I just want the best.

I said Fitch. 

(Your dad, he taught you better)

Fitch.

(Your dad, he taught you better.)

Oh Fitch,

This world your dreaming.

Isn't real life.

You have to fight your battles.

You have to find a light. 

And all this blood.

You have on your hands.

Fitch what have you done.

Grow up and be a man.

chorus

 

Drain
(written by Hayden Oran)

 

 

Close your eyes and see nothing.

Open them and you still see the same.

Nobody knows what you're doing.

Nobody know how you're feeling.

Turn away, Turn away.

chorus: I see through the noise.

I see through the rain.

I see through the noise.

I see up the drain.

"Hey hun, how ya doin?"

Says an old family friends.

Look in my eyes and see right through me.

They look in my eyes and see right through me.

chorus.

I feel nothing.

I feel nothing.

Just save yourself, don't bring me back to life.

 

 

Staple
(written by Hayden Oran) 

 

Friday nights are just the same

in this town.

You close your eyes, A paradise

they've never found.

Against the wall, you're just 

a dream and now.

There you are, then there

you are tearing me down.

Chorus: Staple me shut.

Just like the letter that I wrote to you.

Staple me shut.

Just like the letter that I wrote.

It's no surprise, I need you here

tonight.

I see the light, you're doing fine and

that's alright.

You're happy now, you're happy now

And I'm doing fine.

No I'm not, I swear I'm not.

I cannot lie.

chorus

I just wanna be your everything.

I just wanna be your everything.